[ he mulls that over, because - out of everyone, all of the people that he formed any kind of attachment to, no matter how minor or how lasting, meg deserves answers. there's no attempt to take responsibility or give excuses for qingxuan, because he was just as in the dark, but... ]

I'm a ghost, not a god. [ lightly, for starters. ] A god was responsible for the "root of my despair," though, and that resentment allowed me to continue on in the world after I died.